So, we've all watched and seen how The Biggest Loser contestants lose weight on their show, I want to start The Biggest Quitter. I believe everyone have their biggest vice in life, that they want to quit so much, but haven't had the motivation to. I'm no different. In fact, I do way too many things, that I know I shouldn't be, but I still do.
This is probably a post that I wouldn't want my family to see, since I've been hiding it for many years. Then again, this post should be encouraging to them, that even though I'm on my own now, with the hubby, I want them to know that, I've been looking after myself, and my husband well. And I've been pushing us, to live it healthy, and live it well. If I had to go the longer route to do things, I would, just so that we can live better.
Our life now, living 10000 miles away from the parents, and having all the freedom in the world, we have all the choice to do whatever we want, with no one to stop us. We have definitely broke all the rules we could have. Cigs, alcohol, casinos, everything. In fact, we've done it overboard, way more than we usually would back home.
I sat myself down the other day, I kept saying I wanted to be independant and live a better life than what I had. But what am I doing to help myself? I've been sleepless for the last few nights, staying up thinking what I can do to live better, be better, and be happy.
First thing on my mind, Quit Smoking. In fact, I have a whole list of things I would like to stop myself from doing, or do so sparingly. But I've been smoking for 8 years plus. And its something I'm not really proud of. I've been hiding it from the family, and its has taken a toll on my health, that I haven't noticed. I've never had the time to be active back at home, but here, I've been working on my fitness level, now that we have access to a gym. Everytime I exercise, I feel breathless, and my chest hurts, and I have to stop. Although each time I've improved a wee bit, and able to go longer, its still not enough for me.
The addiction to the habit of the continuous action, the inhaling, the holding of the stick. I want to leave it all behind. Since my last post, I've drastically pushed down the number of sticks per day. As of today, its 2 x 1/2 sticks each time. Later, I'll be heading to the super market, and I'll be buying entire stacks of sugarless chewing gum, and scattering it all over the house, in my bags, and the car. Everytime I need a stick, I'll grab a gum.
I want to quit this time, and I want to change my life for the better. Are you on your way too? I need all the encouragement and support I can get. Throw me some advice if you can, or even better, join me on my journey. Whether you want to quit smokes, or gambling, or alcohol, I'll be posting my progress here. I have a whole lot of stuff to quit to change my life the way I want it to be.
Join me, help me, give me some love, share with me your progress. I love hearing from you people. Leave me a comment, or email me at natxwang @ gmail.com